My feet were still swollen when I got up this morning. I drank a liter of lemon water before I went to work. After I got there, I drank 2 big cups of water. The swelling gradually went down. My feet didn't shrink. First the swelling left my toes, then it left the end of my foot. My foot looked deformed. When I got home from work, I propped my feet up on two thick pillows. Now the swelling is almost all gone. Maybe I can wear a pair of closed in shoes to my interview tomorrow. I have an interview with a job placement firm tomorrow morning. I'm not looking forward to it. As I've told you, I haven't looked for a job in 17 years. I am very intimidated by all of this.

Tonight when I got home, I tried on a skirt that I was thinking about wearing tomorrow. It was too tight. I just sat on the bed and started crying. I was really feeling sorry for myself. After a couple of minutes, I decided that the only person that can fix it is me. I was also crying because I am frustrated at my job search. I'm afraid that I only have from 1-3 weeks left at my job. My boss's last day is Friday. The sadness is starting to hit me, and the panic. My resume is out there, but no one is responding except the people that make me feel uncomfortable.

Maybe tomorrow will be better. No...tomorrow WILL be better.